Free fall

People talk about “the Presence”, they speak of people falling to their knees, sobbing until puddles formed on the floor, shaking uncontrollably. They speak of how they are overcome by the Holy Spirit and how the love of God just enveloped them and held them right there.

I used to listen, and imagine it as a distant thing happening in another corner of the world, because there was no way that I, nor the ultra-conservative people sitting on my right and left, would ever consciously do. Which is the beauty of it all, because on Saturday I saw - was a part of - it all happening, and it was never a conscious thing from the get go.

If this is jumping out of a plane, I sure as hell don’t want ever want a parachute.

-Fauxnatism: 303 Days to ORD/ God


Decided to blog hop a bit when i discovered that not long after i stopped reading Fauxnatism, Denys and John decided to split. Funny thing is, only reason why i decided to check it out was because i saw Denys at Siglap's Starbucks with this girl the other day. Seeing him reminds me how it's really been some time. 4 years since Nicholas and all the madness surrounding the Victorians.

Anyways, reading this entry was weird. It feels like someone writing about how i used to be. First time to observe, second time to experience, third time to believe. If you close your mind to Him, even if the miracle you've been crying out for happened right in front of you, you'll still deny Him. The robber, was so near Christ yet still denied Him.

There's no looking back once you believed though, because as narrow as the path shown is, the light is too alluring to resist, the grace too beautiful to deny. Last Sunday's service was pretty crazy i guess. For the first time in a long while i went up during altar call. Was already pretty overwhelmed halfway through worship, didnt help that communion was that week. I wonder how much tissue i used up that day. Ha. And thank you Yanyi for the hug after that. (:

Oh well. Just hope they dont spice up this week's service too much with funny cny songs, i'll so totally scream. Gimmi a nice quiet session to reflect please.